isn’t it upsetting that your future husband is literally alive right now but you just don’t know who he is he could be with a STUPID GIRLFRIEND GET AWAY FROM MY HUSBAND
also isn’t it upsetting that your future wife is literally alive right now but you just don’t know who she is she could be lonely or sad or something horrible could be happening to her and oh no now im worried…
isn’t it upsetting that your future 50 cats are literally not born yet
Reasons to dye your hair bright and unnatural colors
Because you wanna
Being punk rock
Looking hella cute
Small children’s reactions
Hahaha, oh my god, my friend used to get the most adorable reactions when her hair was rainbow. Little kids would wave at her and shyly smile at her all the time. She would smile and wave back, and I asked the first time I saw it what was happening. She was like, “They think I’m a clown or something.” Ha, it’s just so cute to see them get excited over pretty hair colors.
How do I get noticed? Just in general, just in life. That’s something that I’ve never quite understood. I’m outgoing, not all that shy. I have good social skills, and I’m passionate about my interests. But that secret to finding viewers and readers and fans and friends… it’s just always been an enigma. Is it luck? Or is there something I’m missing? I was born on the day of the impression, which means it’s pretty much my goal in life to leave my mark. Only somehow I have no idea how to do that. I can’t promote myself worth shit, and I’m not sure where to turn. I’m starting to feel a little desperate because I’m just so bad at this, and I can’t successfully do the things I love if I can’t get people to look.
I am so, so sorry for vanishing. Again. I kind of hate myself, because I swore I wouldn’t do this, and here I am. That means from now on, I just can’t trust myself to post unfinished fics. My new rule is that I have to have the first draft completely written and at least several chapters cleaned up and ready to post. I can’t keep doing this to people, and I also want my readers to be able to trust me when I say a post is coming.
That in mind, Dark Skies Looming Over is STILL going to finish. I’m working on it, bit by bit. But I won’t start posting again until the first book is complete so that I never make people wait like this again. I feel so bad about it, and it keeps giving me anxiety, so I just need to do it like this from now on.
See, sometimes I want to post things right away. I crave the feedback. I want to feel like people care about what I write, like it isn’t just for nothing. But that’s incredibly selfish when I can’t even follow through. So lesson learned, as hard as it can be to wait. I’m working on several projects right now that I think could be great as soon as they’re done. I also have a novel or two that I’m working on with traditional publishing in mind, so those won’t be appearing here, of course. Though I probably will post excerpts, etc.
Anyway, this post is for anyone who may still be watching out there. Please know that all of my projects will be finished eventually, and next time I start to post anything, it will be written to the point that, save for tragedy and such beyond my control, deadlines will always be met. I’m very excited about finishing DSLO, and I’m even more excited about getting into Gutter—the dark, futuristic political rebellion fic—as well as Slaying Gods and Torment Ascendeth, two new projects that I think will be pretty awesome if I can just get myself to focus.
I have a lot going on in my life right now, and it scares me a little. I have more time to write than most people, but it gets filled up with a balance of other responsibilities and endless anxiety, with a hint of depression to spice it up. It’s frustrating, because I just want to get my stuff out there. But I want it to be quality writing. If I didn’t care about quality, this would all be easier, but then I think less people would be interested, wouldn’t you say?
Hope you’re all doing well, and again, sorry for the pauses. I’m going to try to start posting new chapters of one of my projects beginning early next year, hopefully before April. I’m aiming to release Torment Ascendeth because it has several similarities to DSLO with a darker feel and a heavier amount of action. I have four chapters written, and with luck, I may be able to finish a first draft before the spring. Fingers crossed.
list of things we need out of lgbt+ characters in mainstream media
more non-white characters
less conventionally attractive characters
bisexual/pansexual characters whose identities are respected
trans characters whose identities are respected
healthy sexual exploration
Well hey, I’ve got the first four covered in Down the Devil’s Path, so I’ll try to knock out some of the others next time around! Just have to tread carefully with sex in YA, so I may not ever get to that one. I love making lists of things we wish to see more of, though, because I want to do what I can to add to the “more.”
still, its horrible that movies and media in general gives you this idea that if you’re a male and you’re not attractive you can still score incredibly hot girls by being funny and “yourself” but if you’re a girl and you’re not attractive nobody’s gonna touch you forever
SOMEBODY FINALLY SAID IT
Finally? I agree totally, but come on, this has been a discussed issue for a while. Real beauty is on the inside means that every dorky, insecure guy deserves a super model. Didn’t you read the fine print?
really tho straight guys will go on and on about how uncomfortable it makes them when gay guys hit on them but lets be fucking honest how many times have u seen a guy continue to hit on another guy after hes visibly uncomfortable vs. how many times a straight guy has continued to hit on a girl after shes visibly uncomfortable